You know things are sorta scaring me nowadays.
The fact that everything can seem so right, but falls apart a little after.
The fact that betrayals are happening in the closest of circles.
The closest community of friends.
I've seen so many betrayals in the spand of just 4-5 months.
How someone you think is your everything turns out to be bored of you.
How someone you see as a brother starts falling in love with you.
How you yourself are put in a crossroad, and you don't know which way to go.
The fact that there are so much lies and pretenses in this world.
So much covering of facts.
So much superficialities.
It just can't be helped.
The fact that there is nothing that truly lasts in this world.
Family? It ends too, in a divorce.
Although it may seem like you can still be a family, separately, isn't that true.
Sooner or later you will feel like you can live without him/her.
And that's when you drift and grow apart.
Only to (many said) regret in the future.
We need to live in the moment they say.
But how can we? when living the moment becomes too scary, cause you won't know what happens after.
But how can we? when living the moment becomes disappointing and destructive.
How can we live this world and try to find peace where there are so many people trying to destroy that peace.
How can we possibly rest our mind, fighting a battle against a high-positioned and sly person?
How can we not yearn about that future that we are always hoping to be better than today?
How can we not imagine a better place?
But we must remember, wherever we are, we always look down.
Look down not to literally look down.
But look down to know who to bring up.
What's the use of saying atop alone?
A lonely world isn't a pretty world.
I don't want people to remember me because they can try to boot-lick me.
I want people to remember me because they respect me.
I want people to remember me by my legacy.
I want people to remember me because they 'owe me one'.
I want people to remember me because of my achievement.
I want people to remember me by what I do good, not what I do wrong.